Birth trauma - 8 months on and I still can't talk about it

Most hospital trusts also run a birth reflections or birth afterthoughts service where you can go through your notes with a midwife. For me it filled in so many gaps. A lot of the fear was the bits I didn't understand.

I've just read these to my husband and cried again, but the good kind this time. I'll ring the GP tomorrow. I didn't know any of this existed.

You might also find it helps to write it down. Not for anyone else to read. Just to get it out of your head and onto paper. My therapist suggested it and it was harder than I thought, but it helped.

Hope the GP call goes well. Please come back and let us know how you get on, we'll be here.

Update, a few weeks on: saw the GP, she was brilliant and referred me straight away. I've had my first two sessions and I've got the birth reflections appointment next month. Still early days but I drove past the hospital yesterday and only had to pull over once. Small wins. Thank you all.

That's not a small win, that's a big one. So pleased for you.